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oh my god it just hit me that thats EXACTLY what that thing was talking about , like if your leg gets fucking cut off and everyone stands around telling you that you can’t just sit there moping and talking about how you’ll never be able to use it again???????? Like it’s EXACTLY that it’s not some minor fucking injury i am a bad person my emotions are not reparable there is no hope for me

ppfffffhhhhhhhh i feel so sick and weird and guilty and bad

i started rereading Them for whats got to be the first time in over a year but i feel so sick i cant even get through them lmao bye

the way things are right now is pretty much the worst possible scenario out of all the ones i used to imagine and i still cant even get over it because im a petty immature child also just on the side i wish i was fucking dead????? nice

this is so stupid and shitty i hate all of this i wish none of this had ever happened

i finally understand those ‘dont look through old messages from someone you used to be close to’ posts hhhhooooooly fuck good BYE

i’m going to fucking vomit bye

literally looking at my own face makes me feel sick im such a selfish horrible brat I need to fucking die

I STILL FEEL WEIRD AND I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD!!!!!!! TALK ABOUT THIS !!!!!!!!!!! BUT I CANT BECAUSE (THINGS I ALREADY SAID AND CANT TAKE BACK SO IF I TALK ABOUT THIS AT ALL YOULL THINK IM LYING AND EVEN MORE OF AN ASSHOLE THAN YOU ALREADY THINK I AM) SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BYE

remember when you used to take literally every negative emotion I had as a personal attack on you and id have to apologize to you for like mentioning that i was feeling something and then like calm you down bc you were freaking out so much??????? remember how fucking awful you were to me??????!??? Bye